I was tired but eager. The whole process had been draining both physically and emotionally to say the least and once, I was awash with a wonderful sense of anticipation. Just after the delivery while you were being cleaned, checked and fed, I hardly had a chance to take a glimpse of you. I was so drained that my eyes were shutting down. Even when the nurse held you to my bosom for being fed I could hardly touch you. I was that exhausted and didn’t trust my hands to hold a tiny baby.
I was moved to the ward post-midnight after a 6 hour labor and delivery. As the nurse came in with you wrapped up in soft cotton, I was scared. I wasn’t sure if I would get things right. I held you close to my heart and just as there were a million doubts swimming through my head, you yawned and opened your tiny eyes, giving me a reassuring smile that made my heart sing. It was such a wonderful feeling that no words can describe it. Being a mother is a wonderful feeling, a feeling I cherish.